Never Let Go........
Today afternoon, dear dear came to my house and i help him edit his blog template.. cuz he dunno how to edit.. we put the same template.. then i read his 3yrs ago post in his old blog.. i read until the post he ******** me.. topic abt him & other gal.. i was so sad at that moment although i knew everything was past.. i told myself not to think abt the past.. but..... my heart was alr bleeding.. haiz.. this led my mind to the image he betrayed me for the second time.. all this should end here.. i should not think of these anymore.. but..... can i? how to fade away the cracks on my heart?!? However.. at least there's also some post that can let me smile.. i don't rmb we r so loving in the past.. cuz we r always quarreling now.. i dun wan to be like this.. in the past.. little things i do also can make him crazy.. some simple words i said also can let him happy for the whole day.. when i'm angry, he will beg for my forgiveness.. when i'm happy, he make me even more happy.. this is wht i wan.. will all this happiness be back? i know now he love me not lesser than the past.. but he expressed it in a different way which i..... i also dunno how to say.. i shall not think abt this anymore.. juz let everything goes natural ba..
After finish the blog thing.. i went to his house.. hahax.. we r weird.. he came to my house and ended up going his house again.. of cuz we not so bo liao la.. his family organised a BBQ gathering.. then we go eat eat lo.. and took some photos.. hahax.. then my mood slowly regained.. actually i dun wan to be sad also de... hope he can understand my feelings.. my heart is always with him.. i wish his heart is always with me too.. Nv change......................